My Deepest Fear

My deepest fear
What is deep?
What is fear?
What are my questions?
What are my answers?
What am I hiding?
What is my deepest fear?

What is deep?
Deep inside I am lonely.
Deep inside I am lost.
Deep in my heart I don't know where to go,
      Or who to turn.
More like where to turn.
Deep on the outside I know, memorize, inhale my present and future plans, but
Deep in my eyes I am very unsure.

What is fear?
I fear that I might not make it.
I fear that my health might fail.
I fear of failing my devised plan.
I fear that people will no longer understand me.

What are my questions?
When I apply for college, will all of my schools reject me?
When senior year comes to an end, will my grades slip up?
Am I going to lose the cousin I used to love hanging around?
Will my cousin ever get through her mental condition?
Will I ever fulfill my life-long career choice?

What are my answers?
There isn't any yet.
But I pray that some will come through to me.

What am I hiding?
Nothing now since I am saying all of this.

What is my deepest fear?
My fear to fail and lose everything I worked hard for.